Thursday, September 25, 2008

cheese please

I need to concentrate more on the things that are important to me. What is important to me? Family? Friends? my work? my job? my dog? the cats? I don't ever know what order to put these things in. Really I don't put them in any kind of order. They are all on the same level. They all get an equally small part of my attention. I don't know if this is a good thing or bad thing. I do feel that if I concentrate more on one than the other I get in trouble.

If I spend too much time petting the cats the dog will get jealous.
If I let the dog sleep on the bed, the cats will want to sleep on the bed.
If I let all the animals sleep on the bed it will get too hot.
If I don't let the animals sleep on the bed it will get too cold.
If I sleep in I will be late for work.
If I spend too much time at work Liz will miss me.
If I spend too much time at home I will fall behind at work.
If I spend too much time with my friends I don't get in the studio.
If I don't spend time in the studio I don't make any money or get into shows.
If I don't get into shows or make money I can't make more work.
If I can't make more work I disappoint myself and get depressed.

Its an evil cycle. Sometimes I wish I could take my brain out and shut it off for a while.

I am trying to slow down. I have a bad habit of letting things slip by me. I will trip over things because I don't see them coming. My life is sooooo crazy. I even show up for classes an hour early because I can't remember what time they start. Thats a bad one. I have been relying on the kindness of strangers for too long. I am going to tighten up. After breakfast...


  1. arthur,

    hey. thanks for the post, it's GREAT to know i'm not he only one with time management issues.


  2. me too. i feel exactly the same way...

  3. "If I don't get into shows or make money I can't make more work.
    If I can't make more work I disappoint myself and get depressed"

    I'm going through this right now.
    Balancing my creative needs with the financial needs is really tough. How do you work through it without racking up credit card debt or ending up in the loony bin?

  4. Growing up sucks doesn't it?

    . . . and "time management" ??
    -- fhuggettaboutit.

    Whatif by Shel Silverstein

    Last night, while I lay thinking here,
    some Whatifs crawled inside my ear
    and pranced and partied all night long
    and sang their same old Whatif song:
    Whatif I'm dumb in school?
    Whatif they've closed the swimming pool?
    Whatif I get beat up?
    Whatif there's poison in my cup?
    Whatif I start to cry?
    Whatif I get sick and die?
    Whatif I flunk that test?
    Whatif green hair grows on my chest?
    Whatif nobody likes me?
    Whatif a bolt of lightning strikes me?
    Whatif I don't grow talle?
    Whatif my head starts getting smaller?
    Whatif the fish won't bite?
    Whatif the wind tears up my kite?
    Whatif they start a war?
    Whatif my parents get divorced?
    Whatif the bus is late?
    Whatif my teeth don't grow in straight?
    Whatif I tear my pants?
    Whatif I never learn to dance?
    Everything seems well, and then
    the nighttime Whatifs strike again!

  5. Arthur! I miss you! I have a new job and it stinks. Being an adult sucks. I never have enough time for everything I want to do.