Thursday, September 25, 2008

cheese please

I need to concentrate more on the things that are important to me. What is important to me? Family? Friends? my work? my job? my dog? the cats? I don't ever know what order to put these things in. Really I don't put them in any kind of order. They are all on the same level. They all get an equally small part of my attention. I don't know if this is a good thing or bad thing. I do feel that if I concentrate more on one than the other I get in trouble.

If I spend too much time petting the cats the dog will get jealous.
If I let the dog sleep on the bed, the cats will want to sleep on the bed.
If I let all the animals sleep on the bed it will get too hot.
If I don't let the animals sleep on the bed it will get too cold.
If I sleep in I will be late for work.
If I spend too much time at work Liz will miss me.
If I spend too much time at home I will fall behind at work.
If I spend too much time with my friends I don't get in the studio.
If I don't spend time in the studio I don't make any money or get into shows.
If I don't get into shows or make money I can't make more work.
If I can't make more work I disappoint myself and get depressed.

Its an evil cycle. Sometimes I wish I could take my brain out and shut it off for a while.

I am trying to slow down. I have a bad habit of letting things slip by me. I will trip over things because I don't see them coming. My life is sooooo crazy. I even show up for classes an hour early because I can't remember what time they start. Thats a bad one. I have been relying on the kindness of strangers for too long. I am going to tighten up. After breakfast...